confessional poem

[strictly speaking I should wait two more days to post this…]

January

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sez, “AKEMASHITE OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU”

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wants people to post MLA-related reading and party pictures here or on flickr.

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is odd.

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is reading Sunday at the new Zinc Bar. Please come!

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reads tonight at the new Zinc Bar with Rick Snyder.

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is gearing up.

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is uploading.

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is yesterday’s response: What is a camel?

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ate shiitake.

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is an effective mix of D-ribose, Magnesium and Malic Acid

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has been faith-healed via song (winks to Stephanie).

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is wallowing in nostalgia on her blog http://ululate.blogspot.com. Care to share what you are missing, too?

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is most grateful to and for all of you.

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dropped her camera (Canon SD550) and needs a new one FAST. Should I go for a SD880 or just a 1100 or bust out the big bucks for a Rebel?

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is freaked that her monitor is not showing her blog. Did this ever happen to you?

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is oh okay I got it.

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February

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has too many things. Some of them inspire me some of them are swallowing me alive.

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saw the worst movie tonight.

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is thinking Istanbul in May. Advice?

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is making a dress that she thinks might actually be very ugly.

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suddenly got sick.

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is ugh still sick.

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is better.

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is actually incredibly run down.

March

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is runnnnn downnnnn….

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reminds everyone in NYC to come hear Charles Bernstein and Adeena Karasick at the BPC this Saturday at 4.

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I’m making movies.

April

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Everyone rocked so hard at the Whitney last night.

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See the videos of the Flarf vs. Conceptual event at the Walker at ululations!

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Sorry about that old-fashioned html.

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fixation.

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I don’t know what’s on my mind but there’s a diamond in my nose.

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kara-age and yasai itame… oishiii

May

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is in Oregon.

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is wondering who will come to our event on Sunday in SF…

June

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agalma

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is reading about Louise Colet.

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iran, vietnamese food. kuchar brothers movies, even slower poetry, difficult personalities

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is chronically overscheduled.

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ponders wistfully la condition humaine…

July

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looked up someone’s wide nostrils on the subway this morning

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…shoehorning “electric music, solid walls of sound” into poems since, oh, 1969 or so…

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mmm, purple cabbage a la Liza…

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: “Motivation is essential,” I said to Stephanie. “And the form,” I continued,”has to match the power of the motivation.” I’m pretty sure you agree.

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Also: I’m more or less indifferent to the deaths of celebrities and to clumsily manufactured literary controversies.

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going to look at extreme mammals today

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walking and walking and thinking.

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is making a movie with naked mole rats, vultures, proboscis monkeys, deep sea fish skeletons, an art-nouveau bell-ringer, a tumbling patchwork girl, spherical guys, dancing witches, and a donkey puppet.

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is thinking hmm discourse analysis for facebook updates exchanges, I’m sure it’s been done, right?

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liked the t-shirt she saw on a young black woman at lunch today, “I Too Can Be President”

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fell down, went boom, skinned her knee, just like a kid, thought you should know that

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wonders, does this medium turn us all into personists?

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heard, “I put my past into the machine, and cash came out”

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Gray cotton retro dress with visible warp and woof, sleeveless, scoop neck, fitted bodice, falling in several soft pleats from the waist to form a full skirt; purple tank top beneath; two strands of beads in shades of pink, magenta, violet; two bracelets

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is thinking this morning about, uh, Vito Acconci, Adrian Piper Yasumasu Morimura, Duchamp, etc. and wondering if I can use their precedents to justify my “today’s ensemble” outfit chronicling on Ululations, like, what would it take to propel my basically

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more output than input lately

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I hate the quotidian. Hate it hate it hate it. That’s why I hate objectivist poetry. It isolates the most boring aspects of the quotidan and asks you to “see it with new eyes.” Give me a break. A friend reminded me that the quotidian is what we live

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saw two empty condom boxes on her walk today, in different locations. People are enjoying their summer.

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loves vacant lots.

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feeling riotous as usual

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: just me and the tourists at MoMA today looking at Ensor. Crowds. Masks. Grotesqueries. Oh yeah, in the pictures, too.

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: Swan Lake this morning on my radio alarm clock. I do like that.

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‘s breakfast: two 4.5 minute eggs, two thin slices of soppresata, three small slices of smoked gouda, four Moroccan olives, 5 stoneground crackers with flax, several cherry tomatoes, some basil leaves. Antipasto breakfast.

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yoyos: despondence/euphoria/despondence/euphoria. There’s a term for this, right?

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: ring ring ring ring ring ring ring banana phone/ Boop-boo-ba-doo-boop!/Ping pong ping pong pong panana phone/ It’s no bolagna, it aint a phony! *chews bolagna happily* *throws spork at you*

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: Gary killed a firefly, but he didn’t mean to

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: Dream I go into a room where there are maybe five guys who look like figures from Aztec cartoon drawings. Some of them are maybe animals. Each one is bodypainted a different kind of metal: oxidize d copper, bronze, etc. Each one has some kind of magic j

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Allons, enfants!

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wonders, howzabout a wise-ass jewess? I’m plenty judgmental!

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‘s next book will be called, I think, CUCKOO…

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: What are you wearing?

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It amazes me that there is actually MACHINERY that will PERFORATE (or “quilt”) toilet paper with tiny designs of HEARTS and FLOWERS. What kind of world is this?

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for their patients that CHEW gum…

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Three more papers to read…second drafts… they’ve improved so much!…gratifying…good students!

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belly dance. soup dumpling. monsoon.

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: guy on street saying “free gift” and handing out flyers that read “eternal life.” False advertising?

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, yeah, the Internet and this forum are made for the compulsively epistolary. Is the facility of constant communication (to the extent that these fragmentary exchanges are communication) conducive of ecstasy? Or torment? Or some blander state in between?

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is sitting on a bench on Ocean Parkway, just another immigrant.

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needs titles of langpo books and chapbooks published in 1984, especially bay area.

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at Bruno in Astoria with Gary Brandon & Melissa

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Usually I start things and then work fixatedly on them until they are done. Now I am in the middle of: compiling two manuscripts, making a short movie, sewing a skirt, trying to find a vaudeville song suitable to perform, and writing an essay. Blogging g

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My favorite part in Brüno (an amusing movie, but no stroke of genius like Borat) was when the “second stage gay converter” was telling Brüno that “we” should tolerate women even though they can’t stick to a point and wander from topic to topic. Talk aboThis status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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THEY APPLY PIGEONS, TO DRAW THE VAPOURS FROM THE HEAD

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hello hello hello hello how low

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I actually dreamed the night before last that I was trying to edit my dream in iMovie. No kidding.

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Someone just told me I look like Laura from Little House on the Prairie today. Uh… is that good? Thinking maybe not…

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Women dream of men. Men dream of themselves being dreamt of. Women look at men. Men watch themselves being looked at.

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I dreamed I was documenting everything (as usual), including a trip through I think Calcutta.

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work makes me tense

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that she ate… the… brain…

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who put the Jew in jouissance?

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Freud wrote that “man must begin to love in order not to get ill.” Why must women begin to love? Does it still count as a prophylactic if someone begins to love and then stops?

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want chocolate… clove cigarette… something bad… none of these things in the apt… storm outside… just as well… will have to eat fruit… or make things… gee….

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just back from dentist: clean fangs!

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I think I need progressives.

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Who needs literature?

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ON Contemporary Practice should be online. Not in print. It should be free.

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oh gawd, just went to twitter and started clicking things, and suddenly it grabbed my whole gmail account with segue contacts and before I knew it I was “following” 200 people, including “enemies”… jeez… I hate twitter, I’m a maximalist… and there’s

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Obama had a **Bud Lite**?? Disappointing.

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BREAKING NEWS: the new ms. will be titled THINK THE BOYFRIEND, not CUCKOO (probably)

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ouch

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drunk on tawny port

August

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open source

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not sure if I’m primarily left-brained or right-brained

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web presence

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like an IV drip

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THUNDER

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awkward language

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the search terms are not, in any way at all, “random”

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I’ll say it again: the search terms are not “random”

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THINK THE BOYFRIEND has been nixed. I’m getting desperate. Maybe HOTOTOGISU?

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why you no like-a the flarf?

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my hair is impossible

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other title possibilities: Loquela or la-la-la Loquela or My Ermine

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natural progesterone yay

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thesis stamen

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15 minutes of proctoring left: please entertain me!

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american FREAKAZOID anthology

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asked to name fifteen westerns; I’m not sure if I can name three

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: a very active mind with not all that much information in it

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the challenge of exemplification

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tonight I have many statuses

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in my Basquiat nightgown…

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excess

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missing someone

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sigh. sigh. SIGH!!!

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today I wish I were Little Richard, somehow

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obdurate irrepressibility

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attenuated limerence

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baka!

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off to JFK today to meet my mom in transit: a schlep, but hey, she’s my mom

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hiyashi chuka

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What beautiful trees are they – locusts? mimosas? – that have dumped seeds and pollen all over NYC and made me so miserably allergic? :-(This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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wanna make trouble

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cherries, sake, silent Ozu movie

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All parody is self-parody?

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Just more a fraction of the time has been needed to facilitate everything. By meditating a confusion of the arduous matter to me, as well as evolving a plan, the flow, which is facilitated by the construction of thinking that I wondered if it might be messed up, tightly ends, and emerge from difficulties. I am reluctant to go back. I like to manifest eagerness.

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your quip here:

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totally disoriented today: got on the wrong train, got off at the wrong station, went out the wrong subway exit… maybe subconscious protest? what’s up with that?

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the macho of brakhage

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teach me something

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But be a comical one!

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need an idea for something to read with my lower-level EFL students (all architects, artists, & designers) next semester… I prefer non-fiction… thought-provoking but lexically accessible…

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reading Nietzsche on my iPhone

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thinking deeply about ruffles…

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Out of sorrow thou shalt bring forth art…

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LOQUELA as title: you like?

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just back from amenia and the wassaic arts festival. we rocked.

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I wish my friends would blog more.

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american poetry wax museum

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this country needs a gut renovation

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Shouldn’t we be VERY discriminating in our use of the word “fascist”?

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lAiRfTe: no gap

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iEnMtOeTlIlOeNct: no gap

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spotty time-warner connection making me crazy here at home today

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“[By 1984] A welter of (wonderfully) baroque theory had enveloped the academy, so that a pool of potential revolutionaries (liberal arts college students) was transformed into mandarin hermeneuts, and a sense of furious helplessness, similar to what we endured in the Bush years, overcame us.”

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“[In 1984] The infamous Language Wars had not yet started (that was 1985), and there was still no “post-language” generation to dilute into mannered ethereality the radical impulses that propelled the initial group.”This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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Purple prose… what else could I possibly write?

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1. The Masculine Tongue ; which is hung like a parlour bell, to command attendance ; or the bell at your gate to summon service; or, that in a belfry, to announce instruction.

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2. Feminine Tongues are musical bells; which, playing soft or loud, always produce melodious peals; and the ear must be little attuned to harmony which delights not in listening to them —a scold’s tongue is only a note in alt, a little too sharp; or a bell above concert pitch ; and a single exception is no objection to a general rule.This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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3. The Neuter Tongue is a dumb bell; but very significant and expressive in some cases.— ” Expressive silence” is a beautiful poetical figure.This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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I think I might be the LENORE KANDEL of FLARF. What a sad fate.

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What a waste to chase the sun in this implausible account of mental life, like homemade fake puke… just as some white people envision breasts as (ontic) white, and go on to associate the latter with white screens.This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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You know what? I’m really pissed off today.

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“with only four weeks’ vacation in a supportive setting free of bullies and Tasers, the formerly stressed rats looked just like the controls, able to innovate, discriminate and lay off the bar” … but I haven’t had a four-week vacation in like five years!!!!This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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I would like to be interviewed.

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no Internet at work today how will I survive

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so my question is does prosody have to be what someone – an agent – /does/, or can it be an inherent quality of language?

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why am I so hungry to communicate all the time? it so often gets me into trouble.

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All poetry is persona poetry. True or false?

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Keats’ Lamia: She was a gordian shape of dazzling hue, Vermilion-spotted, golden, green, and blue; Striped like a zebra, freckled like a pard, Eyed like a peacock, and all crimson barr’d; And full of silver moons, that, as she breathed, Dissolv’d, or brighter shone, or interwreathed Their lustres with the gloomier tapestries…This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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107 million missing women. 107 million.

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anyone else feel guilty segregating their laundry?

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coconut bubble tea from tenren making me feel almost visionary

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“Method is inevitably the anti-method of a previous era.”

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Woozy & queasy: August sickness.

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The poems on Ron’s blog this morning: to me, hardly poetry. I commented to that effect. Your thoughts?

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would like a report on the Laura/Clark/Brandon event.

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I won’t be cowed.

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The surplus smiles at the preeners, and stinky sculptures spring up where there were none before, and that’s kinda cool in the prosodic tinniness of this cranial weltzschmerz, you know, I love my dog I don’t have a dog, I love the paper clock that threatens sudden endings, I love the conversations that play air guitar in my mordant memories.This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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I can SEEEEEEE! Distance! Middle vision! Close up! Tiny text! This is amazing! I don’t care that I’m now a four-eyed dork! I can SEEEEEEE!

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In my dream, he was wearing ruffles, and he still eluded me. He wasn’t any particular person: a composite. My mother said: “he’s not good for you.”

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wow a lot of dreams on facebook this morning. is it something in the air? the moon?

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The 2000s are the decade of the chamois.

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so busy

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the only thing worse than waiting in line at Time Warner cable must be working at Time Warner cable. Torture.

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maybe not a great idea to wear pleated, baggy, tapered, acidwashed jeans. Just saying.

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nothing to do while waiting in line but update.

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new glasses heavy on the bridge of my nose. Will I get used to this? On the other hand, my eyes are happy for the first time in I don’t know how long. It can’t be a good thing for your eyes to wear contacts almost every day for more than thirty years.

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resents paternalistic treatment

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it’s weird, there’s a row of chairs just next to this interminable line, but we’re not allowed to sit in them because we have to “stand in line.” I can feel my ankles swelling. Doesn’t this just seem randomly cruel?

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when I grow up and become powerful, I’m going to make them all apologize.

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high security here. People get mad at this company.

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clerk with “carpal tunnel support glove”: another technology-damaged body…

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ferocious!

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cut hair a few inches or let freak flag fly?

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mass organization would do the trick, I think. (speaking as a former union secretary)

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bought TWO padded mailers for sending out TWO manuscripts. How excellent is that?

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I will unite with the easterly wind’s bum schemas and rattle-trap heuristics in the cocky dismissal of my lustrelessness, its impulsive body, the white nose of its prattling excess.This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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There is pleasure all in and around me, knotted through with infinity like a do-rag, and I’m not hungry, or tired, or lacking in entertainments, because doing this entertains me.This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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the horrid perfunctoriness of American Chinese food

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it’s project runway time – later!This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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“I’m too conceptual for America.”

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for some reason I get mail from the Lubavitch Women’s Org.

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adolescent-casual for fall, believe it or not: novelty jeans, sneakers, faux-leather jacket

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Some excel at creating order out of chaos. I excel at the inverse.

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Gary is a Laundry Champion

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another summer almost gone in which I did not wear once any of the several pairs of “cargo pants” I mysteriously own

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fall resolutions: learn final cut pro, dance a LOT, kick ass. Yours?

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vacuuming, thinking, “I’m going to have my cats waxed.”

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spending my Saturday night on Ubuweb

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“Each time all the theories of poetry amount up to a lapse under the slick between every two words.”

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Here’s to the new Japan! Gambatte!

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watching The Society of the Spectacle made me want to go shopping.

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saw a dragonfly so big almost a copter.

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You know, most of the time if I said what was really on my mind I’d be kicked off facebook.

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“It is to be hoped, indeed, that LANGUAGE, here as elsewhere, will not get over its awkwardness”

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“Whoever has seen deeply into the world has doubtless divined what wisdom there is in the fact that men are superficial. It is their preservative instinct which teaches them to be flighty, lightsome, and false.”

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“Objection, evasion, joyous distrust, and love of irony are signs of health; everything absolute belongs to pathology. ”

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“If woman does not thereby seek a new ORNAMENT for herself–I believe ornamentation belongs to the eternally feminine?–why, then, she wishes to make herself feared: perhaps she thereby wishes to get the mastery.”

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if the next time you see me i’ve got no ass, it’s because i’m working my ass off

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I suppose Facebook quizzes entertain us (or try to) by means of apt or inept analogies.

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Also: exchanges here are little zizzes of energy that spark for a minute then fade out. Why do they fade out? Enforcedly fleeting and contingent.

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watching The Pajama Game, and by golly if it’s not downright //Brechtian//!

September

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just read in someone’s comment: “New York was only ever a sitcom setting for me.” Yeah, me too… and I live here.

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mild shinsplints from wearing 4.5 inch burgundy suede strappy platform monster wedges yesterday. Worth it.

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can’t instruct if you don’t also delight

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inexplicability

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FCP class started last night (almost free with my Pratt benefits). Added benefit: eye candy teacher. Woo hoo!

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anamorphopoetics

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listening to Ken Jacobs on Close Listening. Charles’ intros sound like Charles-poems.

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thinks that no one should die because they cannot afford health care, and no one should go broke because they get sick. If you agree, please post this as your status for the rest of the day (by way of Susan Doktor)(by way of Ben Friedlander)

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I wish I were a man.

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Being and Time has moved to North Hall 144.

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veena

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the sheik/ son of the sheik/ the thief of baghdad

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Every clock in our house tells a different time.

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a tear is an intellectual thang

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“To woman, as mother of God and man, the instrument of reproduction, of tender care, of motherhood, the disputatious, groping mind of man agreed to bow, silenced and awed by the mystery of her calling.”

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“They pulled the sphere lengthwise and made the cylinder, this is the VORTEX OF FECUNDITY, and it has left us the masterpieces that are known as love charms.”

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“”Liszt is inspired,” his pupils whispered, and softly we clustered about the piano. But, more wonderful to me than the playing, was that rapt face—so weird, often almost grotesque, in expression, as the iron-gray hair tossed wildly, and the Titanic arms still hurled thunder-bolta rather than chords.”This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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re-reading the women troubadours

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Hitler’s painting fetched $34,000; Michael Jackson’s glove, $49,000.

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a garish flippancy has taken me this far

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fired up with writing… it’s making me crazy… better take a break or I’ll explode

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I need instant feedback.

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I got carried away.

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when to switch to boots?

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president music sounds like carousel music

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it was a terrific speech. don’t forget to wash your hands a lot!

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embracing the suck

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How does IEA score essays with highly unusual writing styles? An essay with a highly unique writing style or unusual construction may receive an advisory comment along with the score. Human markers can then inspect if the essay is off-topic, written in a language other than English, too brief or too repetitive, contains a written refusal to write, or is otherwise incomprehensible, the human rater will decide that th

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True or false: “Technique is just a means of arriving at a statement.”

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black tulle goth dresses: want to buy them: probably not appropriate

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Oh! The brilliant things I could do if I didn’t have to go to work today!

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in a tizzy as per usual

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they’ve got those blue lights up in the sky again; what do they think, were going to //forget//?

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I feel tough today

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irrational happiness

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Who wants a bunch of my clothes? I think it’s nearly time for a giant giveaway.

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I //bought //the little black tulle dress, and a purple lace one besides.

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migrating geese

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I found four four-leaf clovers today.

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dreamed patti smith was one of several of my roommates in a big house but we hardly knew each other… also a scene of a train ride with several people including brenda iijima who was wearing an intricately ruched long black vinyl goth skirt

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sternutation

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Just communed with a squirrel: its keen animal intelligence!

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12-string guitars!

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this thing I’m writing is very confusing

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taking matter into my own hands

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who wants to go see the keats & fanny movie with me not next week (too crazy), but the following, either Mon. 28th or Wed. 30th?

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I don’t mind when people are confusing, but I get very annoyed when they are cryptic.

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I want a newspaper dress now.

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discomfort

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those liverpool sloe eyes

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ragpicking!

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spittle is the language of the soul

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OK so I’m in a hotel room in fairfax Virginia by myself and there’s a huge four-person in-room hot tub and you know what I’m gonna take a hot tub. Woowee!

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on Amtrak with Rob coming back from giving a reading yesterday and doing my navrang benshi and showing my corndog guy movie today. Also went to holocaust museum and looked at Phillip Guston pictures with Rob… much eager discoursing..

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zonked.

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Solidarity!

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in our free America, the federal government is banning clove cigarettes… I suppose it’s for the better, but wahhhhh

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I picked out my outfit for my panel presentation tomorrow. OOOOWEEE!

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Just back from AD FEM PO conference: so tired I am almost crying. What a week: three gigs plus work. Tomorrow I will report.

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Is countercultural activity a form of activism?

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*circular* continuum of aesthetic response: ugh>meh>huh.>wow!> make it stop!

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Charles B. sez, closing an episode of Close Listening: “I have a tendency to be Charles Bernstein” OK, that’s just too great.

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Why hot again today? I want to wear FALL CLOTHES.

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OK here we go another day of desire repression stimulation overstimulation boredom ennui itches to make things F2F and online encounters weather signage ups downs sympathies and antipathies flights of imagination wild and mundane energy managed gathered and dispelled by way of pen and computer.

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neither Rodeferian nor Wattenian

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Theeling and Finking

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: I pretty much aspire to a constant condition of beatlemania Drew: Baby boomer! Nada: Tail end, yeah.

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all we are is dust, mold, and other airborne allergens in the wind…

October

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I found $10 on the street today.

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moon festival/moon cakes

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LUXURIOUS COMPLAINT: New York: too many choices! Go see the Blessing of the Animals? The High Line (still haven’t been there)? The NY Film Festival where the film Abby and I did is screening? Or stay home and relax and work on projects?

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Oh man, the Atlantic Antic is today, too. I feel like I’m gonna burst.

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The irony, following on my last two posts: this, my horoscope: Capricorn (12/22-1/19) The activities throughout the day will create a lot of different possibilities, and it may be hard to decide which opportunity you want to explore. You have so few things limiting your options, and that is a blessing, but it is also a burden.

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St. John’s cathedral filling with yips, yelps, barks, and the click of doggie toenails: more interesting than the sermon.

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now the choir is singing, and the doggies are too

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I don’t think often about saints, but St. Francis & St. Theresa I like

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lapdogs: their benign little faces

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but the ones here I really admire are the kitties: so against their agoraphobic natures

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little rotating quadrupeds

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insouciant yet skunky

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ill & miserable

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men

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Designer and self-described “seamstress” Isabel Toledo: “”My inspiration this season was having no inspiration. I just worked and it came from the function. It’s not as easy as having a concept.”

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“turf”: blecch.

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pensile harebells with their dewy lips

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“Don’t be left behind – enlarge yourself now!”This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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OK, I need to find a way to blog while doing other things: cleaning house, grading papers, cooking, being sick, sleeping, etc. So much I need to say. Maybe I need an ammanuensis? Any ideas?

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I think the question “What’s not on your mind?” would be easier to answer.

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no

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nightmare someone gave me a terrible haircut

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dream I had a studio

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the ferocity of allergies

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Well I did (predictably) love Bright Star. Huge eyeliner-tracking tears rolled down my cheeks.

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Zizek is a one-finger typist. So think: he wrote all those books with ONE FINGER.

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final cut pro is fussy & hard to learn. who knew I had to RENDER the audio in clips captured in iMovie? and that’s what the beeping was?

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Because of Diwali, alternate-side street-cleaning rules are suspended on Saturday.

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starling symphony & fiery leaves in prospect park today: I don’t believe in “the soul” but if I did I’d say this was good for the soul.

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basket of wings

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Fatigue makes me angry.

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asthma from musty sweaters (in the basement since last winter…)

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or maybe the asthma is from the febreze I’m spraying on them?

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At least I’m listening.

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What events are happening in NYC on Hallowe’en, besides the ongoing spectacle of the city?

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consciousness as mosh pit… did I steal that analogy from someone?

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baby corn: yeccch. Does anyone actually like it?

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put some diamonds on the crotch and you’re home free

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What should I be for Hallowe’en?

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off to Woodstock for the weekend…back to the garden, etc.

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sunset in new paltz… On the bus to port authority… Culture shock ahead…

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poem as reflux.

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status updates should really not literally be “status updates”

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“Standards of excellence of art apply to all. Especially those who have all the resources necessary to achieve excellence. They should be held to the highest standards.” Agree or disagree? (I’ll reveal the source later.)

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I want to start a “conceptual” PUNK BAND whose lyrics are entirely appropriated from Zukofksy (whose name I will only ever make a point of spelling incorrectly) and call it LORINE’S ABORTION.

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tune out, turn off, drop in

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If you post haiku as your update I will hide you. Just saying.

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So wouldn’t the thing to do right now be for all of us bloggers to quote Zukofsky en masse?

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magenta lotion soul bull whip giraffe

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confusing, this new facebook. what the…?

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making another movie… it’s too beautiful, but that’s a luxurious complaint…

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so far have spent my Sunday marking students’ speeches: I’m a champion teacher. Now the imperative: ENJOY.

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learning //compositing// **watch out** !

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I think I’m losing it.

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Can anyone tell me how to get the “false color” effect like the one in iMovie in Final Cut Pro? Is there some complicated procedure or would I have to buy a plug-in?

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And why is everything showing up in DUTCH on my page?

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sensational nightingales

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enough of Afghanistan.

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costume idea: death of the author

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I don’t know if I want to chime into Ron’s comment stream, but the kerfluffle had me wondering whether modernism is even strictly historical (despite its name). Bocaccio, Rabelais, Blake, Baudelaire, Sterne, Shonagon, Baudelaire, Melville (I could go on): all **modernistic** writers, if we think of modernism as a set of textual features or attitudes rather than a historical category.

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“there is gravity but no air”

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Did the christian evangelists on the corner of 15th and 6th Ave. really think they were going to //convert// me to their patriarchal death cult by giving me a free granola bar?

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preparation has begun: corkscrew curls. deepest purple nail polish (nearly black)

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Gary is complaining about “having” to wear a costume. Did I really marry this man? Get with the program, Sullivan! My suggestion: A Shih-Tzu Taliban. Good, right?

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really trying to restrain myself today from making “fresh” remarks… errggh.. argggh…the struggle!

November

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OK, here’s the dilemma: my iMac is wimping out using Final Cut Pro. I do’t have the right graphics card. So do I plunk down the money for a new computer or give up my cinematic dreams and just write poetry which is practically free?

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If I get a new computer and Gary gets my middle-aged G5, what do we do with his old Flower Power G3, which used to be mine? It was voted one of the ugliest tech products ever, but I think it is a thing of beauty, or at least as beautiful as a vintage shower curtain. It seems like a crime to put it out on the street.

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busy

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Now what EXACTLY is the “danger” Sol Lewitt is referring to here? “New materials are one of the great afflictions of contemporary art. Some artists confuse new materials with new ideas. There is nothing worse than seeing art that wallows in gaudy baubles. [continued in comment below]

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Finished my 11th hour NYFA grant app for video. Oh NYFAs please pick me, I need a new Mac so I can make more movies. Please please pretty please!

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facebook isn’t updating properly

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head swirling with computers

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needs to kvetch: all morning writing feedback to students…brain-labor-intensive… so congested, eyes watering, headache from allergies/lack of sleep/change of life? neck misaligned… huge backlog of projects: report on Edwin & Will’s reading last night, a review in the works of Alli’s chap, teacher observation reports to write up, need to continue conversation with Dana on “the lyric”…

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Biology IS destiny?

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What are you trying to prove?

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Ironic that I’m the one who has to be the top cop on plagiarism here at work.

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clutter

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out in the sun waiting to eat Penang curry and on my way to buy groceries and a new nonstick pan having finished my report on Will and Edwin’s reading as well ad massive closet reorganization in anticipation of winter O my food is here…

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I want to re-read Swann’s Way.

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The rods of the sistrums tinkled with a metallic lustre and on this strange music the zingarellas rose

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to the strange music of jingling triangles the gypsy girls rose up

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Here’s what I mean by “hoarding.” I just realized that I have around fifteen cholis. I wear maybe three of them, and then just in the summer. Of course, you never know when you might need a choli. (WTF?)

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weakens to a tropical depression

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I bought a black fedora and although I carried it with me to work today, I can’t quite bring myself to put it on. Since I don’t watch TV or music videos and I don’t read fashion magazines, I’m not sure what fedoras “signify” these days. Can some young person enlighten me, please? Really not sure if it works over flowing tresses, for one thing.

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If I get a new iMac, who wants to give me the new FCS and CS4? I KNOW it’s illegal, but it’s a contribution to Art.

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what if it’s not a QUADRIVIUM but a SHAPELESS BLOB?

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Warhol’s painting sold for 44 million dollars. Surely someone wants to give me, oh say, six thousand dollars, just a tiny percentage of that, to bring more art into the world? 🙂

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zatrudnenie

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conspicuously absent from all quadrants of Christian’s quadrivium: “imagination”

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for me, lyric is not mimetic

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Here’s what I mean: the lyric, or what I’m maybe misleadingly calling the lyric, is not mimetic because it is exploratory, it charts a course as it moves. It may start as affect/impulses, but doesn’t aim so much to “evoke” them in a mimetic sense as to construct and create them in the movement of the poem.

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i5 or i7 processor?

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Don’t cry for me, mediocrity

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Hey it’s not my game, I got it from Hassen!

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apple in my backpack

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romantic formalism

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expressive proceduralism

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lyric rigor

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expensive proceduralism

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Beware, always, my friends, the solemn tedium of the Oppen epigraph.

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A thing of beauty gist? Summary of ‘A Thing of Beauty’? Structure of a thing of beauty? A thing of beauty the full poem? Explanation on A THING OF beauty? Sumaary of poem a thing of beauty? Substance of thing of beauty poem? What is the summary of a thing of beauty? Whole poem explanation a thing of beauty? Critical analysis of the poem a thing of beauty? Word by word meaning of the poem a thing of beauty?

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hard to think of honey as a ‘bad carb’

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Is there an app that will automatically post my FB updates to my blog? I always feel torn.

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I want to go away for a year. No set destination. Just the open road. That’s what I want.

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Attention poetry publishers: when sending promo for a new book, don’t even bother sending blurbs. Blurbs are bullshit and everyone knows it. Send sample poems and some kind of description. Really. A movie trailer shows scenes from a movie, right? Common sense. And poetry books are way more expensive than movie tix.

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Dreamed I was in an empty nightclub in Japan doing several takes of a video in which I appeared naked but smeared with white body paint and fake blood and zombie makeup like that in the profile pic at left. I was surrounded by several “supporting zombies” that acted as a kind of chorus: I screamed something and they all responded by saying ________. (don’t remember)

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: poetry’s hairball

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I found a big biography of Hannah Arendt on the street and I am reading it.

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fairly awful day so far

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I want a whole CRANBERRY WORLD!

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has there ever been a film version of Trilby?

December

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today’s spam: “Such a notion as impotence should not exist!”

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I freed myself! Again!

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the most free live love doesn’t scare anyone/ it’s like seaweed waving in fire

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whew… endorphins… a little better now at breathing…

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butt makeup

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amour propre… cannot be underestimated.

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Laura Elrick (overheard teaching in the other room): “insatiable desire is a tragic flaw”

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we can adjust the rigidity of your noodles

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How many Marxists does it take to change a lightbulb? (overheard in the E. Village today, although actually I think I’d heard it before)

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Day filled with great poetry: Corina Copp & Arianna Reynes at the BPC, then a book party for for Joanna Fuhrman’s “Pageant,” featuring readings by Joanna, Sharon Mesmer, Adeena Karasick & daughter Safi, and David Shapiro. I feel lucky.

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I have to say it creeps me out that inthe right sidebar under “suggestions” it says, “Eve Sedgwick: Say hello” Isn’t there a mechanism on FB to deal with this sort of thing?

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on the brink of going foetal

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“There is a relief in having this sense of mortality. At least I won’t arrive one day at my 80th birthday and at the eve of my possible death and only then realize my whole life was supposed to be somewhat a preparation for the event of death and suddenly fill up with rage because instead of preparation all I had was a lifetime of adaptation to the pre-invented world…” David Wojnarowiz

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FCP question for all you video types… let’s say I want to create a clip of handwriting & drawings to act as an overlay on other clips. Here’s how I’m imagining the process. Handwrite the pages. Scan them into photoshop. Reverse them so the background is black and the text is white. Import them into FCP and drop out the black in Chroma Keyer. Logical? Or get rid of the black in photoshop? Any easier method?

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he couldn’t even pimp a jittery diva… gawd….

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RESERVE is not a quality I admire in a person at all. I have trouble understanding it. Same for that quality in artworks.

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Lamented to a poet friend that I was turning into Anne Sexton. No, he said, you would make a terrible confessional poet: you’re too transparent. Well, I was delighted by that.

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Say what you like about Uggs from an aesthetic standpoint, but to have my bare feet rapt [stet] in sheepswool on a freezing day like this is a beautiful thing. Plus, they’re purple. Come on.

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“Since we have so little anaesthesia, we rely upon vanity.” –Alan Bernheimer

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(after much trial and error) figured it out! Import reverse image from photoshop, “add” in composite mode: superimpose. And now there it is, my script in white.

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“There are fictions that already structure our reality. If you take away from our reality these fictions that regulate it, you lose reality itself.” –Slavoj Zizek, in /A Pervert’s Guide to Cinema/

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to my surprise, just spent $13.99 on a Bach Flower Remedy: “Star of Bethlehem” which “softens the impact of shock, grief, or fright” $13.99!

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I still do hair stuff on the side, besides the construction job.

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Unravel the Mystery of Party Fabrics

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Noriko’s Dinner Table (Noriko no Shokutaku): just see it. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0468820/

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writing

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disgusting “Thai” lunch. I lectured them.

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Suzanne Stein writes: “Poetry’s microtechnological use is of a religious order (ardor), and it manifests that religio-spiritual ardor as a psycho-surgical maneuver.” Discuss.

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: plum Fluevogs boots: “Blind Faith” series. Bid on them. Couldn’t help it.

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I can’t believe someone stole the “arbeit macht frei” sign from Auschwitz. That is the weirdest thing.

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Talking with another poet about the ultimate boringness of pure appropriation. I actually found myself saying that what I want from poetry is “what the poet gives of herself.” Fascinating.

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everything’s muffled except distant snowploughs

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I like how snow is simultaneously hostile and nurturing.

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note to Descartes: no inventor could ever come up with anything as delightful as a cat

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I like this from Mark Amerika: “we are all born-remixers, and as such we are continually sampling from the datum that surround us and innovating new forms of aesthetic viability. I call this datum Source Material Everywhere – it’s literally and metaphorically in the air, ready for downloading…”This status contains special characters. It won’t display properly in the collage.

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the liver nephew

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//Nadja// on the brain this morning. (as part of a complex attempt to deal with my relentless operaticity)

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Good morning real people! parakeet diamond nose target, etc.

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We’ll have to muddle through somehow…

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current brainworm: “matrixial borderspace” (thanks to Vanessa)

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I am so gay for Liberace!

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i wanted a puppy

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On a Trailways bus to Woodstock…

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dirt, jello, windy, and hot

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i’m in the plaza in Woodstock where a guy was just sitting crosslegged on the cold ground playing the times they are a-changing. I thought two things. One was shouldn’t that song be in the past tense? And the other was well really they’re always changing so what’s the big deal?

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Now he’s singing knocking on heaven’s door. I’m not sensing a WHOLE lot of imagination here.

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Snow. Pretty.

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